Never Try, Never Know

I was really glad that i didn't let hesitation overwhelmed me. I am glad that i participated in that impromptu speech. The lesson that i learnt was so precious ----- Never Try , Never KNow.

I have been struggling for about a week about this impromptu speech. I know i have the confidence in presentation and i definitely like it, just that i dunno whether i can make a speech without any preperation. That sounds a bit scary, but not anymore. Because once i tried, and i know that actually I can do it because my mindset was not for winning, it was for learning.

I was the 12th speaker. When the 11th speaker was on the stage, i got my topic -"Is education important? Explain."Ok, when i got this topic, i like it. But damn lar, my previous speaker spoke less than 1 minute(she was kinda nervous and dunno what to talk about) and it gave me only about 1 min to think of the points to talk.

So, being a great fan of "The Apprentice", i start my speech linking to apprentice because Season 3 of the apprentice is about "team with education v. team without education". Haha..ok, it started off well and it ended well.

Aftger i finished, i am just GLAD that i came, I GLAD that I HAVE the courage to do an impromptu speech ---NEVER TRY , NEVER KNOW, at least now I KNOW I CAN!!!

Didn't expect much to get a prize(I do want lar, just that if didnt get also ok cause at least i have the courage to participate). So, after the 30th contestant ended his speech, it is time for the judges to select the top 5 and the top5 will be given a topic to do a speech all over again. (everybody has the same topic).

OK, I think i am just lucky cause i was the 5th person to be announced as one of the top 5. Oh my god! need to do another speech again.

So, 5 of us went to another venue where we will need to prepare for another speech in 1 minute again. Haha, i was the fourth speaker. and Guess what is the topic? "Give 3 reasons you love being a Malaysian"

What comes up in my mind in the first place? aiya, actually i dont really like malaysia very much de lor.. never mind lar for the sake of this competition, i need to cheat.

Yea.. Cheating also can end up with second runner-up. That's really the happiest thing that happen to me (at least recently lar). Cause i learnt a lesson - Never try, never know.

I wanna blog it cause i want to remind myself and others ----- Never afraid of failure. If you afraid of it, you will not try. If you dont try, you will NEVER KNOW.
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So, kinda looking forward to the next challenge... when will it come? SOON and i cant wait it.

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Ok, i finished with the happy thing and let me begin with things that i am struggling.
I just love my society - CDS (Career Development Society) . I want to be very actiave(the damn active one) in this society. I wish i can, just that i dont have the time for it. How to balance academic+ co-curricular activities+ job and make sure they are 100%?? Yes, i know i can, but when i can, I WILL BE DAMN EXHAUSTED.

If i participate, i can definitely see myself in 3 years time. I know if i active in it, i will gain a lot of new experiences, meet with the ppl i like to meet. BUt............ ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........... have been struggling this for months actually....

I am so sorry that if i disappoint any of the main com and president cause i didnt go for the interview. I just think if i am still struggling for whether to be in active, I AM still not ready to give my 100% to CDS which i will certainly do if i have 48 hours per day.

I wish that they wont really think i am not interested in their society.. I DO just that i cant give you my 100%(which i know u guys want me to) when i am still not so ready yet..

HOPE there is someone that can understand how i feel now..
ANYONE OUT THERE understands me????

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Knock Knock
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Time to back to reality

I was Tagged by the girl who is laving us 9 days later

* Dunno when we will see BULU again, but BULU, you just try to update ur blog more often cause WE will view ur blog as much as we can!!*

and thanks for ur countdown in your blog, it reminds me of when u are gonna leave us

Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.

1. The first weird thing is I AM JUST A GIRL WITH STRANGE TASTE.

2. Ya, I USED To( just want to emphasize here) like to read Crayon Shin Chan comics and i was addicted to it. But as you know, the comics are really funny. During the SPM exams, i read it to relax when i cant sleep at 3 something. (Yea..i was having insomnia). Many ppl who know me like crayon shin chan will definitely think i am just a girl with STRANGE TASTE!

3. My name is JUNE because i was borned in JUNE. I know! U will sure think it is weird and U will SURE say u are OCTOBER becsue u were borned in OCTOBER.

4. I LIKE USA and i hope i can go there to experience te life there at least once.

5. I couldn't accept something like "LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT" . Becasue i think if you really like someone, you should like his/her ersonality and i dont think you can see a person's personalities when you see him/her for the first time. And i believe those guys who wanna kao leng lui or da shan leng lui when they first see her is quite fu1 qian3.
( no offence to guys cause i know guys are borned like that, nothing can change this fact and thus i choose to accept this fact.)

6. I am 1/8 portugese and i can definitely know how to speak the language. BELIEVE ME!

7. I admire my brother, oh my god, he is very capable and i hope i can meet more ppl who have his kind of attitude towards life. He has become one of my inspiration. He makes me want to upgrade myself.

8. I think gemini has a lot of different personalities. and i think that's really true!

9. When i am crying, dont you ever sak to me. cause you will make me cry more. If i rally happen to be crying in front of you (which is unlikely to happen now), you better just sit beside me and say NOTHING. By having someone beside me but saying nothing will be sufficient enough to stop me crying.

10. When i am laughing, it is not my zhi1 qi4 guan3 got problem( dunno who said so liao---> seems to be baby or chea hao). It is because I am borned like that.

The 11th not so weird thing is that,

11. MIN!, I MISS YOU LERRRRRRRRR. Take care there ya! Since you said i didnt update my blog, so i think it should be the time i update and at least leave a msg for you here. Kinda looking to sing K with u again!

The 12th not so weird thing is that,

12. BULU, u take care in JAPAN ya. and u try to find whether got shin chan postcard in Japan. If you have, you must send me one. I will appreciate it very much..Haha

The 13th not so weird thing is that,
13. I am just a normal gril with strange taste( it has become a fact to me and i will jut accept it)

The 14th not so weird thing is that,
14. I think i should finish this post and wtch my tv programme already! and before that , i would like to tag the following:


1. Ardy who always asks me what is the colour of the sky.

2. Mee chui who was used to active in blogging but not so frequent now.

3. Karmen who is becoming prettier and prettier

4. Yin han who is a talented girl

5. Aaron who has not updated his blog for quite some time

6. Yik Cai wo is living with his ex teacher now

7. XINMIN who is my lesbian buddy that i really missssssssssssssssssssssssssssss( she likes purple colour)

The apprentice = Apprentice itu

My brother asked me when there will be "The Apprentice" in Malaysia.

So, we made such a joke, Tony Fernendes will have one show called

"Apprentice Itu" when he retired.

A favor for xinmin cause she is bc packing luggage and doesnt have time to upload photos

Guess she has no time to upload photos cause bc packing up the luggage, I shall do her a favor by uploading these photos and add some captions on behalf of her. Actualy, she didnt ask me to do so.

Kar, here you are!

That's Frenz5eva who finally went to sungei wang to take this photo without any helps from other expert.

No more neighbour. And on my right that's the lesbian buddy who is uploading the photos although she needs to pack up her things to go to Bandar Sungai long 30 minutes later.

Oh..everybody is so sweet in this photo. You know what, CH girls are getting prettier and prettier ever since they left CH. Therefore, it makes sense that CH has a lot of POTENTIAL Leng lui.

mei peng on the left and my future neighbour on my right.

Me and him.

Me and the grass of 6s1

Why the photo so.............clear.............guess it is just the impact after the camera being left in the refrigerator for about 10 minutes before June and Joean rescued it.

Oh God, the one who is holding the camera really has a "great" skill in taking photo. That's us with leng zhai de fa

Oh, that's me on the left hand side! I am the "tallest"( do u really get what i mean?) in the photo. Yeap, everyone is getting prettier and prettier.

What i like about you

Oh my God, Amanda Bynes super funny in this drama. You can go to youtube and type

"What i like about you ep 117" and then you can watch it. Enjoy it. It is damn funny to see her acting.

Lelong

Currently doing an assignment about lelong.com.my. Suddenly have the urge to sell in ebay.. seems like a very challenging and fun expereince. But i think i will start from shopping in ebay first.. Okok..will plan it more detailed when i am free.

My best lesbian Buddy(J.J.)

Hello guys, let me introduce you my neighbour. Her name is ONG XIN MIN or sometims because i am too lazy, i will just write "min" Yea, i just fell like i ned to write something about her although i am quite BC this week. You see, xinmin, u should be glad to "see" this. Haha..

Anyway, just that after 27th Februardy, we will not be the 100-steps-distance neighbours anymore. She will leave for Taiwan. Erm...Our distance is quite extreme xia xia. For the past 16 years( cause i moved to sri gombak when i was 3 years old), we are( which is going to be "were") neighbours, classmates and best friends. Not easy to have such friends you know.

So, i guess i am just lucky. I had a friend previously was my classmates+friends for about 11 years. Ya, that's jia jie. After he went for nz, at least every time he got give me chocolate lar..Haha..Yayay...thanks for that.

And after that, i have xinmin ler, BEST FRIENDS EVER. really didnt know we will be so close until eveytime we go timesquare together, sure will meet jong wei. I think maybe jong wei suspected us are LESBIANS. Ok, even though we aren't, if jong wei said so, we will just need to accept. Dont you know that everything said by jong wei IS CORRECT. If he say "Yes ", you will not be able to say "no".

So, as i remembered when i was form 2, the first thing i said the xinmin was," is it you come from taman sri gombak". I think i totally shocked her for that. So, i was not very close to her in form 2. We only know each other THROUGH KOK JOEAN.. yea, the ducky KOK joean.

Haiz, back to sad part, she is leaving soon ler..Tel you what, ONG XIN MIN, i will damn miss you. If you have any news update there, you must let me know u know. If u have any bf"s", must inform me, let me select the best for you. I will give them marks based on the following criteria: Appearance(20%), Demeanour(20%), EQ(20%), IQ(20%) and Motivation level(20%).

Dont be stupid lar, i just say say only, wont so wu liao do that. So, i guess this week i cant meet you but i will definitely try my best to meet u during CNY. I just feel like t is time for 5 "38" girls to "38" again. I just realized that i always get the "38" news from xmin, so it proves that she is "38" enough.

Really dunno how to express my feelings without you as my neighbours, i have no where to complain ler... Impossible for me to complain to ardy or wei hong der mar, right? But nvm, 4 more months is my bd, you must send me a taiwan bd a.....

Ok, guess i have to study liao,

From xinmin-best-lesbain-buddy

JUNeJUNe

味道，音乐,回忆

每一种味道都有一种回忆。
每一种味音乐都有一种回忆。

I will always change the shampoo after a certain period because if i dont change, I cant remember anything special by the smell. My housemate now using the LUX, i can smell the CH Hectic life, but i couldnt remember it is form 4 or form 5. But i definitely Love that smell, i smell the old times. However, couldnt smell so much, the memory will fade if i smell it too many times.

Last time when i need to take LRT everyday, i have to get up very early in the morning , about 5:50am for the sake of 8am classes. I was exhausted at that time, my mum put a larm which is quite nice but now i cant play it, the music of "LRT" will come to my mine.

I like listening the same songs for about at least 2 months, cause i know this is a form of memory. After 3 years, when i listen to the same music again, what i got is the memory, the memory i have nearly forgot. Therefore, when i listen to "becasue of you" and kelly's songs, it will remind me of SPM.


味道，音乐,回忆

It was 3 months ago i did this. OK..kinda funny i think..but the turte is too CUTE ALREADY. However, i dunno where it is now cause he is too small lar..

$$$

SO, i am here again, doing nothing but blogging. Honestly, even studying in Malaysia also need to save $$$. So cham lar, everyday spend RM6 on eating. quite expensive xia lor.( ok, i know some of u might feel zadao) Since i have just started my new sem, need to spend lots on those text books, photostating, household expenses and etc. Cant imagine if i am studying in foreign countries. If your parents can afford you to study in foreign countries, actually u should be glad and thankful to them. It is not that easy to sponsor someone to study in foreign country. Could u imagine how much it cost? the tuition fees, the text books fees, the pocket money, the rental fees... all these things need $$$. and it takes a long time to earn such a big amount of $$$. ERm..staying there has saved me a lot of time where i can use the spare time for doing something else. Hope i really and manage my time wisely on studies, co-curricular activities and my so called part-time job. I KNOW I CAN DO IT...ADD OIL..


Thanks for those who come to sg long and visit chui nee, hui wen and me. GLAD TO SEE U GUYS

Zac Efron

Zac - CUTE!

Oh my god! They look so SWEET together!!! Vanessa damn Pretty. There will be more lesbians with the existance of Vanessa actually.



He has a cute smile.. LOVE IT

Sunway Lagoon

So, joean suggested us to go to sunway lagoon since she got few coupons. Not for free actually, we have discount on the tickets by using those coupons. Not a bad idea also, so after planing, we went there last friday and

IT WAS FUN, and DAMN FUN. THANX GUYS.

It was very ci4 ji4 there. We were in dry and wet park. Damn syok especially those Roller Coaster, river ride, and much much more. The funny part was with Tzeh Huaeh actually. She is not that keen on having "fun" in those places. You know, some ppl just have different definition of "ci4 ji4", "ci4 ji4" can become scarying for some ppl like Tzeh Huaeh. I think Tzeh Huaeh went there for scaring herself. RM33 was wasted. HAHA.

Anyway, I think everybody was having fun there. Earlier in the morning when we reached Sunway Lagoon, we just found out that our dear ban cao didnt bring any pants. Oh my god! how is he going to play in the wet park? So, we decided to buy him pants as his borthday present.

Anyway, LOVE U GUYS. KEEP IN TOUCH YA!

We went to Sunway Lagoon. It was full of excitement to meet them. Not much changes. Just that u know, the ban1 cao3 thought being a ban1 cao3 need to have grassy hair. And marissa went for rebonding. This photo was taken after we bathed. A kind stranger took the photo. It is too small actually to see our faces.

Guess who is not in there?yes, min was holding the camera or my handphone.OK, i bought a new handphone few months ago after struggling for a whole year.


Joean kept on saying that she wanted to take the photo. And here we are.

I took the photo. The scenery behind is just awesome.MIN, U WEAR MY DEAR ORANGE SHIRT.

It was a wise step to spend our day in sunway Lagoon. anyway, if you dont know how to get there by public transport, here you are: take LRT to Kelana Jaya Station(RM2.50) and take Rapid KL no. 623 to sunway pyramid. You may walk to sunway lagoon from sunway PYRAMID.

The girls are back. Pai seh, my hair kinda messy--> Just bathed, didnt comb much.

Singapore

Wow..it has been a week since I got back from singapore. Anyway, the sad thing is that I have to go back to uni next week. Gosh..so fast? Erm..overal, the trip to Singapore was really enjoyable. A week without having to pick up any calls, worrying about anything, that was just awesome for me and my mum.

For the first 2 and a half day, we were following the tour guide which is kind of wasting time. U know what, we have to wait for others as they need to “pee”, eveytime we visit a place, we need to wait ppl for “peeing”. Oh gosh, I better walk on my own. So, the fun part was actually dedicated to my dear Singapore auntie. Yea, I mean living in her apartment was more xiang4 hua4 than living in a room which the size is just as big as the first world hotel.

I have visited quite a lot of places in singpore. Walking along the orchard road makes me feel like I am in a western country, waiting for the Christmas celebration. Yup, It was Beatuiful down there.

The fact that I have my cousins with me is sososososos great because they are super cute!! Yes, as you know, they like GAMEBOY which I don’t even have own one before. I like SURFING NET. So, the funniest part is that I am curious in playing their GAMEBOY and they are so curious about the internet. YES, we made a deal, I exchenge the gameboy with computer. THE GAMES WaS JUST AWESOME. I even played some of them before. U know lar, like supermario, sonic this kind of games.

Here are just some random photos I took with descriptions.

The left is my "elder sister" who just came back from "US" . OK...i was dreaming just now. This is a photo i took with my dearest mum in the bus. Do we look alike? Erm..many ppl said so

The snake dolls in night safari which is really really expensive to go and visit.

The "cute" biulding in "cow,car,water"(牛车水)--> a place name but i dunno the english, so I just simply translate it from chinese to english.

Mum with the christmas tree

Orchard Road- pic 1

Orchard Road-Pic 2

Orchard Road-Pic 3

More photos are coming if i am not lazy.

You know what, i couldn't believe it. In a samll photo also can se so many ppl copying answer. How good the photograper is!!!

BIG CORPORATION

Just got back from singapore this afternoon. Oh gosh, not really that tired because I have enough sleep in the bus. You know what, the bus was just awesome. Although it is not that awesome until everybody will have his/her own tv, just that the seats are adjustable. YES, it is adjustable. Maybe I am too short. If I made the maximum adjustment, it can actually accommodate my whole body vertically. It is just like a bed! AWESOME!

That’s a lot to write about singpore. In the meantime, there’s a lot to write about those so –called big corporation too. You know what, that’s just a disaster with those big corporation such as MA**S, STR**MYX which is under T*L*KOM. So stupid lar those big corporation. I think my brother and I should start writing a book entitled

“ THE 10 BIG MISTAKES BIG CORPORATION IN MALAYSIA ALWAYS MAKE”
-by AndyLow and JuneLow
dedicated to
Mum, Lee Lee

Yes, their customer service soo LOUSY, after I have made a few calls, I couldn’t tahan, I scolded SH*T as always, for sure, not in front of those not-really-trained consultants.

The most funny part is dedicated to STR**MYX, when I call their customer service, it started out as

“Dear our VALUE CUSTOMER( ok….thanks for regarding me as “VALUE” customers), we are so sorry that we couldn’t answer your call because of some TECHNICAL PROBLEM(which is unsolved for ages). YOUR CALL IS VERY IMPORTANT TO US(oh gosh, if important, why I couldn’t call you guys, why there’s nobody answer my call) and then it continues ……….”

Apart from that, I think they should rerecord those call center voice, their ENGLISH is just so……

I am very stingy with these kind of things. I have the right to be a consumer. BUT LOOK, I PAY FOR DECEMBER Fees, BUT I USE NOTHING OF THE SERVICE. Come out!!! Total up, I have went to the T*L*KOM for 3 times, I have called up at least 6-7 times. I sent an e-mail once.


PROBLEM? - unsolved

Breaking Free

Just bought High School Musical few days ago. Those songs are still lingering in my mind. DAMN NICE! i mean we have pretty girls, handsome boys. You know, the Gabriella looks like one of the actor in desperate housewives. Troy, rm..kinda cute. I mean he is quite cute and his voice damn nice. Really, when troy+ Gabriella= DAmn damn damn NICE. That's the combination and according to Gbriella, they paired up every time during their audition for the movie. Really like the song "Breaking Free"- very nice indeed.

BY THE WAY, today is our UEC zhuang4 yuan2 birthday.
Happy Birthday Yen siang

NoT HAppY

Against All Odds
(Take A Look At Me Now)"(feat. Mariah Carey)

[Shane:]
How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace,
When I'm standing taking every breath,
With you, ooohhh,
You're the only one who really knew me, At all.

[Mariah:]
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave,
Cause we shared the laughter and the pain,
And even shared the tears,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
If you're coming back to me it's against all odds
,And that's what I've got to face.

[Mark:]
I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry,
There's so much I need to say to you
,So many reasons why,
You're the only one who really knew me at all

.[Mariah:]
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me
,Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
So there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
When that's what I've got to face.
Take a good look at me now,
Cause I'll be standing here,

([Mark:] Standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds
,And that's the chance I've got to take.

[Westlife:]Got to takeGot to take
[Mariah:]OohTake a look at me now
[Westlife:]Take a look at me now.

Anyway, now is 2:23am and i am still here, surfing the net. in fact, i am just downloading the anti-virus. As you know, VIRUS SUCKS!. Me and my bro just formatted a desktop and 1 laptop at the same time. As you know, formatting computer is a waste of time considereing in a short run basis. Therefore, formatting 2 coms at the same time will be more effective.

After seeing karkar's msg in cbox,thinking for a while, it has been a long time since i have the mood to blog here. Dont know why... Not eveything can be explained by words.

Yea, i am going to have my holiday soon after my exams. Yes, the exams are the last for this year, so happy about it. hope i can get scholarships from UTAR and external scholarships to finance my studies. Next year is a new year, going to have a new life, hoping new career, new students. I am kind of looking forward to it. At least for the next year i can teach more tuition and mum's burden will be lesser compared to this year.

Yesterday(sunday) was the last class with syuhada. Haha, kinda appreciate her for giving me this learning and earning opportunity. I really learnt a lot of things for her. i learnt ow to express myself clearly, how to guide people and of course a little bit about their cultures. I was so happy when she told me she has learnt a lot of things from me. I do appreciate it.

Sometimes, just have the why-i-want-to-make-myself-so-bc feelings, actually am i bc compared to others? I dont think so lar. Everybody hashis/her own stuff to do just that you yourself think U bc only lor. Erm..kinda a good point.

2007, a year which many of Ch freinds will be leaving for singapore and SAM friends will be leaving to..... and xinmin will be going to ..... So much uncertainty here. Just wih that everybody can move on with their lifes witouht forgetting where they come from. I truly apreciate the friendship i have with everybody but the sad thing is i dunno whther te last gathering was the last chance i see him/her/you?

For those who are going to University, BE CAREFUL when you are choosing you members in any assignments. I have been through about 15 something assignments and the first thing u need to be aware is to coose your members. Or else...........(the feelings are so difficult to describe, you may learn it from yourself or the description from your friends in University)

Anyway, it's time to have a nice sleep!!!

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