Never Try, Never Know

I was really glad that i didn't let hesitation overwhelmed me. I am glad that i participated in that impromptu speech. The lesson that i learnt was so precious ----- Never Try , Never KNow.

I have been struggling for about a week about this impromptu speech. I know i have the confidence in presentation and i definitely like it, just that i dunno whether i can make a speech without any preperation. That sounds a bit scary, but not anymore. Because once i tried, and i know that actually I can do it because my mindset was not for winning, it was for learning.

I was the 12th speaker. When the 11th speaker was on the stage, i got my topic -"Is education important? Explain."Ok, when i got this topic, i like it. But damn lar, my previous speaker spoke less than 1 minute(she was kinda nervous and dunno what to talk about) and it gave me only about 1 min to think of the points to talk.

So, being a great fan of "The Apprentice", i start my speech linking to apprentice because Season 3 of the apprentice is about "team with education v. team without education". Haha..ok, it started off well and it ended well.

Aftger i finished, i am just GLAD that i came, I GLAD that I HAVE the courage to do an impromptu speech ---NEVER TRY , NEVER KNOW, at least now I KNOW I CAN!!!

Didn't expect much to get a prize(I do want lar, just that if didnt get also ok cause at least i have the courage to participate). So, after the 30th contestant ended his speech, it is time for the judges to select the top 5 and the top5 will be given a topic to do a speech all over again. (everybody has the same topic).

OK, I think i am just lucky cause i was the 5th person to be announced as one of the top 5. Oh my god! need to do another speech again.

So, 5 of us went to another venue where we will need to prepare for another speech in 1 minute again. Haha, i was the fourth speaker. and Guess what is the topic? "Give 3 reasons you love being a Malaysian"

What comes up in my mind in the first place? aiya, actually i dont really like malaysia very much de lor.. never mind lar for the sake of this competition, i need to cheat.

Yea.. Cheating also can end up with second runner-up. That's really the happiest thing that happen to me (at least recently lar). Cause i learnt a lesson - Never try, never know.

I wanna blog it cause i want to remind myself and others ----- Never afraid of failure. If you afraid of it, you will not try. If you dont try, you will NEVER KNOW.
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So, kinda looking forward to the next challenge... when will it come? SOON and i cant wait it.

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Ok, i finished with the happy thing and let me begin with things that i am struggling.
I just love my society - CDS (Career Development Society) . I want to be very actiave(the damn active one) in this society. I wish i can, just that i dont have the time for it. How to balance academic+ co-curricular activities+ job and make sure they are 100%?? Yes, i know i can, but when i can, I WILL BE DAMN EXHAUSTED.

If i participate, i can definitely see myself in 3 years time. I know if i active in it, i will gain a lot of new experiences, meet with the ppl i like to meet. BUt............ ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........... have been struggling this for months actually....

I am so sorry that if i disappoint any of the main com and president cause i didnt go for the interview. I just think if i am still struggling for whether to be in active, I AM still not ready to give my 100% to CDS which i will certainly do if i have 48 hours per day.

I wish that they wont really think i am not interested in their society.. I DO just that i cant give you my 100%(which i know u guys want me to) when i am still not so ready yet..

HOPE there is someone that can understand how i feel now..
ANYONE OUT THERE understands me????

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Knock Knock
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Time to back to reality