Cough out bad things

Been coughing like really non stop, I was awaken by my own cough, slept only 3 hours last night.

Today is better , at least I sleep 7 hours before I was awaken by my own coughs again.

Just when u are sick , Then u know mummy treats u best the most.

There's no other person who can replace this spot definitately.

Well things are a but tough on me , or maybe I over think they are , when they aren't :)

I just couldn't completely let things go which I know I am supposed to.

I know time will do the magic , I know I willbe fine , and can't wait for that, just that sometimes these thoughts just came into ur mind suddenly out of no where

So I really got to control and choose my thoughts wisely,

Gonna re read my book , this book is actually given by Mei ping few years back, I bought the chinese version myself too ;)

xxxxxx

I just hope I can get lucky next time , this year 桃花运is full of bull shit,

After the boss of GAMBLING Internet cafe ( nearby my office place) been callin me on and off for like 2-3 weeks, leaving me voicemail- well I feel like he wanna bring me see gold fish, no joke.
Luckily he didn't come to my office at my door to talk to me , I will faint


And then there is a Malay postman who work and come pick up parcels from my office.
Yesterday yesterday this postman send a parcel to my house and met my mum, luckily he is so stupid enough to let my mum know he berminat dgn I . My mum told him I gonna married soon. Hahahahah

Wei full of shits isn't it? And after all that happened in march, helping ppl over for a break up and I got myself into shits.

Maybe I was just too nice to help and comfort ppl, and when u get into trouble , ppl leave u alone.

Well maybe I am too pessimist here.

But yeah , I just gonna share my thoughts , but I am actually quite okay here ( if I don't sound like too okay) BUT I am perfectly okay :)

Tomorrow will be a better day !!
I trust karma, no matter good or bads , I sincerely trying to work on myself on every aspect that I could , mental, knowledge, physical or blah blah blah , because I am ready to make you regret to the max, and u could never ever have me back! Woo hoo !!!!

Wait for meeeeeeee!

My TV!

OKay, after much consideration, i have gotten a TV in office,

I feel quite bored at work sometimes, those FMs sometimes sucks too, either they play the same songs or the Djs sometims are just boring.

Well, it was also because i got a UNIFI here, and i can watch some channels here, so why not just get a TV

and apparently, 2 of my customers registered at my website cause they saw me on TV ahah, okay, thats a UNIFI channel where not many ppl would watch (REALLY, trust me!)

and i think the show called "BLOGSHOP" got repeated again, so i am thinking to record that down , with a minor recorded, along with my TV
* it was first aired on march, but that time i know it too late, didnt get to record the show properly.

As crazy as it sounds, iWent to buy the cheapest LCD i can find : Rm600, 21 inch, not that bad.

And i ordered a recorder device RM67 from lelong.

Everything reaches on time, and its time for recording.

It took me like 2 hours to figure out how to use the device ( including all installing, toubleshooting blah blah blah)

To my relief, luckily i managed to record, and i uploaded to youtube to share with my customers, in case they are interested to have a look , just for a branding too, :)

Didnt share in personal fb, cause i think ppl who genuinely care about me, will see my blog.

If u would like to watch ;) its my pleasure to share with u  :D



Btw, i think i am bit bit fake on tv ;)

hahahha :)

Thanks for watching ;)

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Good things pls come!!! :D

I have been saying YES to a lot of new things & experiences & gathering recently.

Some are really good, some not that suitable for me actually

and ever since i kept an open minded mind towards new things, i realize, i was quite a bit shut down for the past.

Like i got a lot of emails asking to collaborate this & that, i usually will think the bads first, but now i try to keep a neutral mind, as long as it is a beneficial or no negative points, i will try that out.

and went to a friend's gathering nearby my work place yesterday, the gathering was at 8pm.

My problem when trying new things is that when it is 755pm, i have the urge to go back.. hahaha but then it always takes 1 min to force urself!

Yeah, i glad i did go, it was really nice, met some uncle auntie & they actually gave me some new ideas 

Btw, KPOP is nice, but just not my thing hahahhaha ;)

and tmr am heading to a seminar , shit full 2 days seminar from 8-5pm.

MY ZI RAN XING is gone for the weeekend ;)

New ones are always better, =)

ALWAYS!

Reaction & emotional control

Okay, i have these thoughts in mind, i might as well write it down :)

I am watching The apprentice asia, again! it has been really long time since i watched this show & watching it really makes me realizes something.

I just realized i need to work on these 2 different things : Reaction & emotional control.
This is really so important on all aspects in our life: ur work, ur relationship with family , friends, ur biz  or watsoever. But it is really important.

When a problem comes, the way we reacted to it is the one that determines whether the problem IS actually a problem.

and when we are emotional, we tend to make decisions in rush & out of emotions , and this might lead to a negative reaction.

So i think i need to work on 2 things : my emotional control (EQ) and try to remain calm and easy when facing difficulty. And not to make a decisions when my EQ isnt neutral. By neutral it means, u are not overly excited & not overly depressed about certain things.

When u detach urself emotionally from a certain task, u tend to make a wiser decision, just now u are a 3rd party. This is really a tough call. It is very easy to say than done. Cause when it comes to family or relationship, there's where emotions are getting into the way.

But i still think this is learnable & should be practised more often.

So yeah! that's something i wanna work on & improve on myself , gotta grab a book for it.

I mean, whenever i face an obstacles, i know i will get through it eventually (so there is really nothing to worry about, cause u know u gonna get through it eventually), and yeah i think i learn something!

and i am feeling determined to make my life better :D

Today i am heading to a trial class.. HAHHAAH i really hope that will go well. OR it will be going really well ;)

:D:D:D

I write this during working hours! ahahha okay nvm just a 10 mins thought wont kill :)

Thanks for leaving !

You have no idea that it could be the best thing ever happened to me :)

I was indecisive and thank god that u decided that for me , trust me , few more months down the road , and I am becoming more and more certain about the choices u made on behalf of me :)

Blessing in disguise !!!
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And Flaunder !!! I will be bringing u hike from uk in octtttt WAIT MEEEEE FLaunder !