recently, I have been thinking a lot.. esp at night which makes me so .. excited and i cant sleep at night

why cant i do the thinking in the morning?? ??? and now i have to really zhen zuo.. should sleep early..


not much to say, it is just a bit sad that why the hell i msned him for like thousands times when he online and he ignored it!!!! gek sei...... yea, ever since he started working and like taking up part time courses, i am sure he doesnt have much time, but i got really bu shuang because this is not the only time happening as this happens everytime !!!!!!.

I am not into him, dont get me wrong, i am just ... simply sad.. because he used to 38 a lot of 38 things and tell me a lot of crazy stories... and those stories about his friends/life were so juicy and it was basically part of my entertainment when i got really fed up with my assignment mates last time during uni.

I just wish that it would be even alright if he tells me he is bc because i just really due to the nature of my current work right now, i am the easiet person to contact on earth as i need to be alert with any communicatoin means on earth right now...
sms, call, msn, facebook, skype even livechat over the website now...
i just dont have twitter...

and i think i was a bit pissed off just now with him and ever since he started his accounting job over there, we hardly talk.. and we used to talk A LOT though.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just sad.....

No wonder the last time we chat, he told me that his friends were a bit pissed of him .. and now i can feel it... and i understand it..

I mean.............. he has to understand that it is not something NOBLE when ppl initiate the contact with him everytime and he just simply ignores more than like 10 times....

I think the last time we fight about things was like 3 years back aboutt something really really stupid and i was damn pissed that time and he was damn pissed too...... wow.. time flies...

and i wish he will know how angry i am now which he wont know though.... but i am really angry with him!

i am just sad that i lose a really really good friend of mine......and i wonder when he will reappear in this world ever again... but.. i am still a good friend, so just wish him all the best!!!!!!

and the next time u HI me, even if i am bc, i will still HI you even thogh in my guts i have the urge of using the tooth to return the tooth..